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hi everybody, how's it going?

 

i'm fine as usual! :)

busy busy busy.

next week is going to be even more busy! my employer has returned from his holiday break! ^^

these few days were fun as usual!

on thursday, i went to meet Xuan, and then to meet dearie and his poly friends for dinner.

and then friday i was sick.

today i went to visit my cousin's new baby! but my camera ran out of batt, so i will wait for my cousin to upload the pictures or something. :)

my cousin's new baby is so sweet. she's super long la. hahahaha. just look at her, and you know she will be this pretty long-legged woman when she grows up. her birthday is the same as my buddy!! coolness.
 

anyway, i have the pictures for thursday dinner already. so i'll talk about thursday then!

thursday, yanying was there for dinner too!

it was awesome, really! because i never have much chance to talk with dearie's poly friends. i'm always left aside. :( haha. can't blame anyone because i'm really extra.
 

 

so, it's been a really long time since anyone have saw yanying. anyway, dearie's friends keep saying yanying is very pretty!
 

 

which fact cannot be denied. she's indeed really pretty. ^_^

but do you know what yanying and i were chatting about all the time???

hahahaha!!

chatting about weightloss and cosmetic surgery.

she wants big boobs!! hahahaha! 

she said with big boobs, clothes will look nicer on girls.

but i disagreed.

i don't really know how to explain why.

RANDOM PASSING MEMORY:

the other day, jessica called me to help her with her Tokyo trip and i said i wished i could go. and she said, "go find a job la. no money how to go." i forgot what i said. then she recommended me to be an air stewardess. and i said, "i wish!" and she said, "then go for the interview!" and i said, "i'm too short, i think." and she said, "no la!!! now the planes are full of short stewardess!" hahahaha! and i said excitedly, "really really??? what's the height requirement now??" and she said, "i think 158cm."

and i said, "i'm only 155cm."

and she said, "oh."

short pause.

and she said, "really meh??!?!!"

and i said ya.

and she said, "then that's really too short."

HAHAHAHAHAH

woohooohooo!

i don't know i just find our conversation so funny. hahahahaa

you know, when i type HAHAAHHA, i'm really laughing.

it's like i'm so amazing. i always make myself laugh.

HAHAHAHAHA

and i feel so stupid laughing in front of the computer. i can't laugh really loud because my mother would throw me weird stares. but sometimes i really feel like laughing out loud because i think i'm so funny. and i know that my behaviour is kind of loser-ish. but i hope you can understand how it feels to be me.

anyway, a little bit out of topic for awhile, but i told my aunt a joke today while she was driving. and she laughed for so long and so loud. all the way from bukit panjang to bukit gombak! no kidding. and the car was going in a zig-zag manner and she kept shrieking in between laughter that she can't see the road at all because her eyes were closed from laughing so hard.

it's super funny la.

my grandma and uncle po couldn't get my joke at all. but my aunt laughed in such a manner, that it got everyone laughing. even my grandma! so i was kind of happy. because it is so hard to get my grandma to laugh after she got a stroke. i mean, i know how it probably feels so sucky to get a stroke, not being able to feel certain parts of your body. it really sucks alright. i don't know if i can ever laugh again if i have a stroke. especially how my grandma was a really active kind of grandma. she participated in so many things. she held so many jobs. she did housework every single day. she loved to cook for us all. so you know... most of the times now, she sits there, with a blank stare on her face. she is still perfectly intelligent despite her speech slowing down. but she still has that awesome memory. but all she lacks now is the jolly laughter she used to have.
 

everytime i visit her, i attempt to make her laugh. and if you still don't believe that a smile or laughter can influence people, believe it now. because it does, i'm telling you. sometimes i just flash her my biggest smile, and she will sub-consciously return me a reflection of my smiley face. or if i laugh very very hard, she will laugh too.

so

you know!

put in some effort.

nobody said it was easy to be happy.

happiness is probably the most difficult thing to attain.

and today, i suddenly thought, we want this and we want that. but when we finally get this...wait. let me give an example.

like for example, i might aim for a big house. and i work all my life to get that big house. but i would probably feel nothing much after i have attained the house for some time.

to cut the long, incoherent story short, our goals and dreams keep us moving. and the process of attaining the goal, at the end of the day, is much more important than the goal itself.

so with that enlightenment, i decided that i shall enjoy the process as much as possible!!! when i attain my goal and look back, i want to be awed by how much i had been through and overcame everything. and i want to be amazed at the friendships i have made. and how glad i am that everyone supports me and stuffs like that. i also want to be impressed by how much i've learned and did.

woohoohoo!!

no more fear.

i just confessed to my boyfriend all my fears this afternoon. isn't my boyfriend so nice? he listens to everything i say patiently. when i'm upset and chooses to keep my mouth shut, he gently guides me to pour things out. and after i finish saying everything, i just feel so much better.

and you know you know. all my friends are so nice too. i just don't know what to say. but i have many friends who care about me. my goodness. life is great like that.

 

 

i get really upset when i have a bad hair day.

nothing has changed since poly days.

i remember when i felt that i looked ugly, i would just skip school. that's pretty lame, huh.

i suddenly forgot what i had wanted to write. so here's another picture.
 

 

when i find that my pictures look ugly, i'm upset. i know, kinda bimbotic right. like actually, the above picture, i hate how i don't know where my eyes are staring at. and my hair is like an ugly wig. i just can't feel good about myself when i see pictures like that. it's not what people say. it's just me. i'm just not happy with myself, alright? ugliness to me, for me, is equal to laziness. so that's why when i see myself looking ugly, i know that i've been lazy again. might be lazy to style my hair. lazy to get my makeup right. lazy to think of what to wear. lazy to exercise.

so that's why i'm upset.

i'm upset when i don't keep to my promises.

i think maybe secretly i'm a virgo or something. i just want things to be perfect. perfect in my own standards...

which reminds me. sometimes, my employer will say, "i don't know about you. but my standards are not that low. and if you can accept this kind of work, i'm surprised that your standards are so low."

like a slap to my face.

but it makes sense man.

somehow.

towards myself, i want to raise my standards. make it high.
 

 

anyway, i end up talking about me, myself and i again.

the things is, after dinner, dearie and his friends went to Gloria something to have coffee.

oh ya!

their coffee is only 3 dollars now!!! so cheap! but yanying and i were full to the max, so we didn't order anything.

the seats yanying and i were sitting at was super stuffy!!!

both of us couldn't take it and we left dearie and his friends. we went inside cineleisure with the intention of checking the shops out. but almost every shop has closed!

hhahaha!

but we saw a pushcart stall full of cute dolls!!!!
 

http://i154.photobucket.com/albums/s279/tinababytony/0616-ddung/ddung140.jpg
 

wahhhH!!! 

cute right!!

her name is Ddung. she's from korea and she's only 4 years old!! awww!! sooo cute!!

acually, i saw her last year. it caught my eye because there was a design where there were many apples on her dress or something. and i immediately fell in love!!!
 

http://www.kaboodle.com/hi/img/b/0/0/3e/7/AAAAC0__0TIAAAAAAD51Lw.jpg
if you like Alice in Wonderland....hehe!
 

anyway, she's really so cute la. i love love love her!

but of course i still love my Blythe dolls. my love is great and covers all dolls. :D:D:D:D


so, yanying and i were squealing over the dolls. "so cute!!! soooo cute!!! ohmgosh!! look at this one!!!" *squeals together* "super cute la!" "super super cute!!!" "wahhh!! look at this one!! she has her own teddy bear!!" "oh look at this one! her furry coat!! so cute!!!"

and the owner attended to us and joined us in our excitement. very nice right the owner!

the owner swooned over the dolls with us, until suddenly there was nothing more to say. and it became somewhat awkward.
 

HAHAHA.

you should be there! you will know what i mean. super awkward...and we made some lame excuse to leave. hahahaah! because we had no intention to buy! just attracted to cute things!!

so off we went to the other empty floors and we took many funny pictures together!
 

 

it was really fun to have yanying around la!!!

she's super on!!!

wah i love ppl like that!!!

sasuga, a saggitaurus!!!

yay yay! i think i really mix well with saggis. hehe!

we were totally in our own world, man! hahaha! when we returned to the others, we still continued in our own conversation. we went home together on the train and continued chatting. nonstop chatting. ahahahah!

fun fun nice nice!

hope she can come out moreeeeeeeee!!!

yippee!!!

and...it's so late now.

i have forgotten many things that i had wanted to write. gaaaa.

i will update again!!!

good night!